It’s been a while since I dumped my random thoughts on the blog. My daily life is quite a routine, where I’d take care of the little baby, and chauffeur the girls to and from school / classes. Then, at least 5 days a week, I’d try to get my workout in, whenever I have the time. I’m lucky to have some help, so it hasn’t been very stressful. However, that’s about it. I haven’t really been thinking much at all, and it makes me feel like a robot.
I was watching some random YouTube videos after the kids went to sleep, and someone talked about getting rid of old makeup due to eye infection. Dude, I’ve had eye infection for a whole friggin month. It started with a harmless stye on my lower right lid, which then turned into a huge chazalion on the upper lid. I thought it was over and done with until my left eye decided to join the party, starting with a stye and THEN a chazalion. W. T. F. I was off eye makeup for the whole month! So, even though the infection was NOT due to makeup (I used all new stuff, mmkay?), I went through my Z-palettes and Unii palettes and got rid of old makeup. A few years back, I depotted some old palettes and singles, so I got rid of the oldest ones. (photo on Instagram here) I was sad, but I haven’t been using them anyway. And then it hit me that I really have too much. Even with my Stash Shopping posts every alternate Sunday, I couldn’t go through all of them.
There’s an old Dior (LE) palette that I depotted, and I love the eye shadows very much. I use them now and then, but there’s also a beautiful shifty purple cream liner that’s old. The texture has always been dry and hard, but it still swatches beautifully. I don’t know if I want to throw it away! But what if I get an eye infection from it? But dude, there’s no way I could find this shade ever again! But when was the last time I used this? The eff… my mind was playing ping pong with itself.
And that is why, my friends, I have been toying with the idea of letting everything go. Stop blogging, stop reading blogs, just stop it already. There are so many new shiny things, new beautiful things, and there will always be the next best thing. It will never stop. If I didn’t keep up, didn’t know any of it, the lust won’t be there. I’ll be able to use the money saved for something that I actually need. I look at the makeup that I have, and I only really need 5% of them, probably less. Then, perhaps, I’d use up something before buying something new. The craving for new things and the addiction of wanting more feels dangerous to me.
I asked myself before – if I stopped blogging, how would my makeup life be? I think I’ll just stick with that few foundations, blushes and basic eye makeup. For skincare, I’ll probably just stick to what works and will MAYBE give something new a try every now and then. It will be boring. Then maybe I’ll pick up another hobby, but the same thing will happen again. Once I like something, I am
borderline obsessive. All or nothing – that seems to be both my strength and weakness.
So there really is no cure. SUCCUMB! I’d just have to tell myself that this is more economical than those with luxury bag addiction, or fine jewelry addiction. That could bankrupt a person if not managed properly. I should really be happy right? Through this unhealthy obsession, I met wonderful like-minded people, have silly chats on twitter and laugh at our so called hobby. See? I just talked myself into believing that this is a good thing. I should be perpetually sitting on a rainbow. What problem do I have? None apparently. And all those words… just to come back to square one. I’m a happy camper 🙂
I guess you’re stuck with me for a little longer. Until I run out of excuses.
What about you? Is anything bothering you lately?