Hello everyone, this yoyo is back. I started this journey a year and a half ago, setting up little goals to achieve while attaining that big picture in the long run. I have to say there have been ups and downs, lots of hiccups. I was on board full swing for a while, and then fell off the bandwagon. I just got bored, and started trying other things like running and pop pilates but now I’m back lifting again.
However, I’m happy to report that I have some little wins along the way. I can now lift all my groceries and Ashton at the same time, while running to the car. I am much more flexible and can even do the splits. Still can’t do handstands though. I can do half a pull up – getting there, slowly. My lower body is definitely stronger than my upper. I lift much heavier than a year ago. I squat 62.5kg and deadlift 85kg, my recent personal best. And I hear many of you gasp.
Some of you would say I’m strong. But let me tell you, people ask me why I lift so heavy. “Do you want to look like a man with muscles bulging here and there? Why do you take protein powder? Isn’t that for those who want to get bigger? Won’t lifting so much weight make you look manly?” All those misconceptions and uninformed, uneducated questions make me go bonkers. There is no short answer because it takes a lot of reading and understanding to really know about nutrition and how our body works.
Let me just tell you in short that us women in general don’t have the hormones to make us look like Hulk. While losing weight and watching my calorie intake, I will sacrifice some muscles. I need to minimize that by lifting heavy, shocking the body into thinking that I need to preserve all the muscles I can to do the crazy shit. So, optimally, the body will lose fat instead of muscles. That is really what all of us want. Lose fat, not just weight from water or muscles. That said, I’ll need the time to achieve what I want to achieve, and once they actually SEE the results, they MIGHT understand. And when I’m much closer to my goal, I’d probably have to add much more cardio to the routine.
Then again, I live in Asia, in a smaller town nonetheless. Women are supposed to look small and skinny with flawless porcelain skin. That’s the typical standard of beauty here. Many eat like birds. Some eat like a teacup chihuahua. I see it differently though. I want a body that not only looks but is fit and healthy, a body that is strong enough to protect myself and my little ones. A body with defined arms, perky butt and strong legs. While smaller than most men at the gym, I lift heavier than they do. I get looks that say “whoa!” and some “WTF” ones but I like that. I like feeling strong. It’s definitely one of my motivations 🙂 I strive for an athletic body, and I am working towards it. All I need is consistency, patience, persistence and faith in the program my husband designed for me.
** Bear in mind this is my personal thoughts on what I want for myself. I’m not saying that what you’re doing or not doing is wrong, and that my way is right. What I’m sharing is what I think works best for me. A personal journey of trial and error to a healthier body. There are too many sensitive people around who take things personally that I need to put up this disclaimer. **