I’ve changed the title many times, saved drafts I deleted and also stared at the screen for hours. I just don’t know what to write. I do know however, that I need to say something about 2016. What a year it has been! It’s close to 5pm now, kids are watching Totoro on TV, and I’m contemplating pouring myself a glass or two of the Brown Brothers Moscato chilling in the fridge just to see if it’ll help my thoughts flow more freely. I don’t even drink (maybe 1 glass a year!).
And 2 days later… (LOL!)
I have procrastinated long enough. I read many posts on 2016 recaps and I love reading all of them. So I’m just going to write without editing. Whatever that goes through my mind RIGHT NOW.
Sure enough, there are some really obvious bizarre things that happened, beautiful people passing away and the rise of some sort of evil. Then again, I’ve also seen so many good, and these good things will hopefully outshine the bad. In the end, I always believe it starts from “ME”. Yes, you, me, but it’s me. Let’s point the finger at ourselves and take the ownership and responsibility to be kind and good, and also happy. I’ve tried, and it’s not easy. Still trying!
Blogwise, the year started off pretty regular, doing more reviews as usual. Then my grandfather got sick, and passed away, and I took quite a bit of time off. Still am, actually. I haven’t really been able to get back into full swing, because truthfully, it’s probably the holidays. Hahaha! I will be busy with the girls going back to school and having a whole new schedule come Tuesday, so that will take a bit of time for me to get used to. That said, I have some things I want to share with you, things I’ve been using regularly, so I’ll try to get to those things first. And hopefully be back full swing, posting about 3 times weekly. Here are a few things I emptied by year end.
Workout wise, my strength improved massively, but my endurance/stamina is pretty shitty, if I’d say so myself. So, nowadays, my workout is more about metabolic conditioning, that is less heavy, but more volume, more reps. I’m not aiming to be a power lifter, but my main goal is to change the way my body looks. So, I keep telling myself, I shouldn’t care if I could pull that 100kg deadlift! Nutrition is still my biggest weakness. Food is. I get my workouts in, but as the saying goes, “You can’t out train a bad diet”. Hahaha! I don’t eat badly per se, but I’m not especially good at it either. I have my days. Or weeks. Teehee!
Then, lastly and most importantly, me being a mom. It is friggin tough being a stay at home mom to 3 kids. At times, I’d rather go back to the time when I was working full time. Now that I’ve done both, I can cross my heart, honestly say that being a stay at home mom is tougher. Why?
- Minimal connection with adults so I feel left out, out of touch, whatever it is, just not normal
- FULL and constant contact with whiny kids. Test my patience every second
- Minimal to no time to self. Kids are always going “MOMMY!!!”. Even taking a poop takes ninja skills.
I think these 3 are enough to drive me nuts. Then again, with thoughts like these, in the end, I’d still choose to be with my kids. Here in my country, it is the norm to leave for work before 8am and come home after 8pm. I won’t have much time to spend with the little ones at all. After all, at the end of the day, when they rub me like big kitties, give me big hugs and wet kisses, all my stress would disappear. So for now, I’d rather stay at home and spend as much time as I can with them. So here’s to more hair pulling, self choking beautiful days. Hahahaha!
That’s about it, my friends. I’m ending 2016 with normal every day thoughts, little things that make me, well, me. I don’t live an exciting eventful life, but I like it without drama, thank you. Mundane has its perks and beautiful things happen in the least expected boring routine. If we look for it, even just that ray of light passing through the leaves brings a sense of wonder. Even just a kind smile from a stranger.
** Thank you Dior for the beautiful globe**
Cheers to all of you beautiful people, and thank you for being here with me. Thank you for reading my incoherent thoughts, my rambling, my rants and for staying even when I’m not around enough. Here’s to a wonderful 2017. See you next year!