I’ve changed the title many times, saved drafts I deleted and also stared at the screen for hours. I just don’t know what to write. I do know however, that I need to say something about 2016. What a year it has been! It’s close to 5pm now, kids are watching Totoro on TV, and I’m contemplating pouring myself a glass or two of the Brown Brothers Moscato chilling in the fridge just to see if it’ll help my thoughts flow more freely. I don’t even drink (maybe 1 glass a year!).

And 2 days later… (LOL!)

I have procrastinated long enough. I read many posts on 2016 recaps and I love reading all of them. So I’m just going to write without editing. Whatever that goes through my mind RIGHT NOW.

Sure enough, there are some really obvious bizarre things that happened, beautiful people passing away and the rise of some sort of evil. Then again, I’ve also seen so many good, and these good things will hopefully outshine the bad. In the end, I always believe it starts from “ME”. Yes, you, me, but it’s me. Let’s point the finger at ourselves and take the ownership and responsibility to be kind and good, and also happy. I’ve tried, and it’s not easy. Still trying!

Blogwise, the year started off pretty regular, doing more reviews as usual. Then my grandfather got sick, and passed away, and I took quite a bit of time off. Still am, actually. I haven’t really been able to get back into full swing, because truthfully, it’s probably the holidays. Hahaha! I will be busy with the girls going back to school and having a whole new schedule come Tuesday, so that will take a bit of time for me to get used to. That said, I have some things I want to share with you, things I’ve been using regularly, so I’ll try to get to those things first. And hopefully be back full swing, posting about 3 times weekly. Here are a few things I emptied by year end.

 

 

 

 

Workout wise, my strength improved massively, but my endurance/stamina is pretty shitty, if I’d say so myself. So, nowadays, my workout is more about metabolic conditioning, that is less heavy, but more volume, more reps. I’m not aiming to be a power lifter, but my main goal is to change the way my body looks. So, I keep telling myself, I shouldn’t care if I could pull that 100kg deadlift! Nutrition is still my biggest weakness. Food is. I get my workouts in, but as the saying goes, “You can’t out train a bad diet”. Hahaha! I don’t eat badly per se, but I’m not especially good at it either. I have my days. Or weeks. Teehee!

Then, lastly and most importantly, me being a mom. It is friggin tough being a stay at home mom to 3 kids. At times, I’d rather go back to the time when I was working full time. Now that I’ve done both, I can cross my heart, honestly say that being a stay at home mom is tougher. Why?

  1. Minimal connection with adults so I feel left out, out of touch, whatever it is, just not normal
  2. FULL and constant contact with whiny kids. Test my patience every second
  3. Minimal to no time to self. Kids are always going “MOMMY!!!”. Even taking a poop takes ninja skills.

I think these 3 are enough to drive me nuts. Then again, with thoughts like these, in the end, I’d still choose to be with my kids. Here in my country, it is the norm to leave for work before 8am and come home after 8pm. I won’t have much time to spend with the little ones at all. After all, at the end of the day, when they rub me like big kitties, give me big hugs and wet kisses, all my stress would disappear. So for now, I’d rather stay at home and spend as much time as I can with them. So here’s to more hair pulling, self choking beautiful days. Hahahaha!

That’s about it, my friends. I’m ending 2016 with normal every day thoughts, little things that make me, well, me. I don’t live an exciting eventful life, but I like it without drama, thank you. Mundane has its perks and beautiful things happen in the least expected boring routine. If we look for it, even just that ray of light passing through the leaves brings a sense of wonder. Even just a kind smile from a stranger.

 

 

** Thank you Dior for the beautiful globe**

 

Cheers to all of you beautiful people, and thank you for being here with me. Thank you for reading my incoherent thoughts, my rambling, my rants and for staying even when I’m not around enough. Here’s to a wonderful 2017. See you next year!

 

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

 

 

Written by Lily

  • Happy new year, Lily! <3
    Everybody says 2016 was bad and I myself somewhat agree, but I can't help but being thankful for what I have as well as being hopeful for the next year. May the new year bring wonderful and beautiful things to all of us!!

    • Lily

      And here’s to a better year, every new year! I think because you feel thankful that you appreciate the time you’ve had. It’s your beautiful and positive attitude in life that makes you happy 🙂

  • Yvonne Tay

    Happy happy new year! (: May the new year bring much warmth and love.. and lots more positivity! 🙂

    • Lily

      Thank you Yvonne. It’ll be Chinese New Year soon. So much to do, and did you notice how quickly the malls changed from Christmas cheers to CNY red? LOL!

      • Yvonne Tay

        Hey Lily! Yes, CNY soon! I’m totally online shopping.. now. haha. the malls here DID change really fast, and they are SO crowded. (: Thank goodness there’s online shopping! (so I can pretend I didn’t buy enough.. and get more! =D)

        • Lily

          It’s been so crowded at malls, every single day! I usually bring the kids to the mall after school but lately, it’s been so hard to find parking. I can only imagine it’ll get worse until after CNY.

  • Happy New Year to you and your family Lily! I’m glad I got to stay home until Marky was in school all day as well-sure, there was less money but I treasured every moment back then. I’m glad you have that opportunity as well. All the best!

    • Lily

      You’re an awesome mom, Tracy. I hope my kids will think I’m cool just like how Marky adores you!

  • Oh yeah, I totally believe you when you say being a stay-at-home mom is HARD! I could never do it. Happy New Year, Lily!

    • Lily

      Thank Melissa. I didn’t think I could do it either. Heck, back then, I couldn’t even see myself with 1 kid, let alone 3. But circumstances change, we evolve 🙂

  • I couldn’t agree more with how tough it is being a stay at home mum but I’m lucky because my husband works from home so I do have adult interaction but it’s different talking to my husband than others. It’s better now that I have a part time job and honestly I do feel more balance and I love that I’m earning my own money again.

    • Lily

      I know I will be going back to work one day. Perhaps when Ashton is at school. But for now, I’ll just enjoy spending time with them 🙂

  • ML Chan

    Happy New Year, Lily! And to your two “big kitties” too 🙂

    • Lily

      Thanks ML…. 2 big kitties and the 1 little kitten too 🙂

  • Bugs

    Oh Yes, your 1, 2, 3….. it’s hard isn’t it, but I would still choose to do it again than go out earn my own money. Funny huh… Cheers to the toughest job on earth!

    • Lily

      Thanks Bugs and cheers to you for making the same choice! Sometimes I think to myself, the kids better appreciate it but what would they know? I’ll just wait for the day they become parents themselves 🙂

  • k r i s t e n //

    Lilz, my hat is off to you, and any mom, who chooses to stay home! I think it would be so hard for the very reasons you mentioned, but in the end, it really bonds you with your kiddos and them with you. Everyone I know who has an exceptionally close relationship with their mom or dad had the experience of spending their formative years with that parent at home. I’m sure it is unbelievably tough, but in the end, so worth it. I couldn’t agree more about “mundane” being preferential over drama. I like what you said about the sunlight filtering through leaves being a moment of beauty to be enjoyed. Very sage! Sometimes the highlight of my day is hearing the birds singing in the evening when I come home from work. I think real happiness is being content with what you do have and not comparing yourself or your life to others’. Congratulations to you on all of your amazing strength training successes! You inspire me. When I saw you doing deadlifts I was impressed! I’m currently doing a 27 day squat challenge that takes you from doing 5 squats to 100. Today was 45 squats and I did it without feeling winded! I love the feeling of gaining strength and having less aches and pains. I’m so sorry about the loss of your grandfather. When you’re close to someone and think the world of them, mourning their loss takes a very long time. You honor his memory and life every day by being kind, funny, honest, and beautiful you. You and your precious babies are a wonderful legacy anyone would be incredibly proud of.
    Much love to you, my friend!
    Happy 2017! 新年快乐

    • Lily

      Thank you Kristen, and your long comment made my day. I LOVE IT! When I was a working parent, it was tough too because I always felt guilty for not spending enough time with my kids. I had a tough time juggling both, and my motherly instincts definitely trumped money making instincts. LOL! I’m glad that I have the option to stay at home, but every person, with or without kids, has life challenges. My priority just happened to be this.
      I used to have a very stressful job and every day was drama. I absolutely hated it. Because I was unhappy, even my personal relationships suffered. I’m glad to be out of that toxic life now. And yay to doing 45 squats and still feeling strong! I’m still getting used to my new workout routines because now, I’m left winded after every session. My stamina just isn’t there.
      Thank you for being a friend, Kristen. Your beautiful and positive attitude shines through your words and photos. Miss you!

  • Happy New Year to you Lily! Enjoy being a mum to your still young kids. The other aspects of your adult life may not be too eventful to you, but THAT part is very precious. We have been trying forever and just don’t succeed, so for me you are truly blessed. (and I hope 2017 will at last bring me hope in that field). Lets say cheers to a fabulous 2017 for both of us, and continue improving in our fitness, enjoying the little and big things in life, and to positive beautiful days ahead. xxx

    • Lily

      Thank you Sofia. I hope you’ll get what you want this year. It’s a blessing to have little ones indeed… but it’s also a blessing just to be alive and enjoy what the world has to offer 🙂

      • Thanks for your words too Lily, yes, I’m trying to enjoy and not think too much about it right now…

        • Lily

          And it sounds cliche but the more you want it, the harder it is to achieve. Stress doesn’t exactly help with performance. Hahaha!

          • I’ve never been so stressed in my life than in the last few years, so I’m beginning to think that its not cliché at all!!! xxx