Monthend Randomness: Feeling Blue

I’ve always known time passes by a little quicker in the beginning of the year. There are so many things to do, and many of us are still pumped and excited to meet our new year resolutions. For me, it’s a little different this year. Family members seem to be unwell a lot lately and my grandma has been in and out of the hospital. Maybe she misses my granddad too much. I can see how hard it is to lose someone you’ve been with for more than 60 years. When the heart is involved, when there are emotions involved, everything changes. People die every day. Why would some matter more than others? I’d die one day. Why would I matter more to some and not others? It’s because I’ve only touched the hearts of some and not all. So, our heart, is a fragile thing.Β Fragile but powerful.

Where am I going with this? I don’t know. I’ve seen some people shine so brightly during the darkest times, and yet, some people shine because they bring darkness to the world. We’re a confused bunch, yes we are. Just like how I am right now. So if we hang on tight to our true self, will there be less confusion? I know I can only try. There are so many shades of grey. If only things are as clear as black and white.

On another note, what I know for sure is, I’ve used up these skincare products. I love every one of them (well, except for the Biotherm moisturizer) and I’m sad to throw them in the bin. The Estee Lauder ANR serum has become a little too pricey, so I’m looking for alternatives. Luna is great, and I will repurchase.

 

 

 

 

I have used up and threw out some makeup too, but I post updates on Instagram instead. I think I’m feeling a little blue this Tuesday. I feel bloated, snacking on roasted peanuts (which will just make me bloat more!) and I think the bleeding fest will start soon. That’ll explain my mood too. I should hit the gym later but I feel so lazy. Hope you’re more bubbly than I am!

 

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

 

  • ML Chan

    It’s always darkest before the dawn… you’ll get there πŸ™‚ PS: Even a lazy stroll does wonders!

    • Lily

      I went for a more strenuous workout that night. Buckets of sweat, definitely helped!

      • ML Chan

        Hurrah for you! I always find the best workouts are the ones you kinda sorta “dread”

        • Lily

          Indeed. I did hurt for 2 days though. The glutes… eeoowwch!!

  • Sorry to hear your grandma isn’t well. I can only imagine how difficult it must be for her. Hope she gets better soon. And wish you an easy period. The bloating thing is real for me, too. You work out rigorously, which I know helps. πŸ™‚

    • Lily

      Hey Lena, yes, workouts help with the bloating for sure. She’s getting out of the hospital tomorrow, and I hope she’ll be OK soon. I think she’s depressed πŸ™

  • I’m at loss of words when I read the first paragraph. I just want you to know I think about you and sending lots of well-wishes to you and your family! Hugs.

    • Lily

      Thank you Laura. The words just came, and usually when I post, I don’t really filter my words. When I’m close to having my period, I get really moody. LOL!

  • I hope your grandma starts to bounce back soon, it must be so hard to lose someone you shared your life with for so long. Hugs to you and your family.
    I’m SO glad I don’t have to deal with periods anymore WOOHOO!!! I finally am in menopause officially, as I didn’t have a period at all last year. Best thing ever!

    • Lily

      LOL Tracy. I can imagine it’s so much easier not having to deal with periods, but I’m also not in a hurry to reach menopause. Hahaha! Things do look brighter today, and Ashton behaving like an angel today helps loads too πŸ˜€

  • I hope your grandma will feel better soon but yes, I guess it’s really tough for her and I can’t even imagine how much she’s missing your grandpa. πŸ™ The heart is fragile and easily broken, I can’t imagine the sorrow, Lily.

    Onto the empties, I’ve been reading about Missha Time Revolution Night Repair is a dupe for Estee Lauder ANR, maybe give that a try?

    • Lily

      Thanks Shireen. I tried the Missha Time Revolution Essence before, and I have a feeling it broke me out. So, I’ll probably give this a miss!

      • Oh damn, that’s a shame! I was thinking of purchasing that when I run out of my Estee Lauder AND samples (2x7mL) but now I’m worried that Missha might break me out too. I’m so paranoid after my terrible experience with The Ordinary serums. πŸ™

        ps: Chanel Code blusher sold out when I wanted to buy it, really broke my heart but I bought Burberry Nude Glow bronzer and a Burberry Lip Velvet instead so yea, buh-bye spending ban. πŸ˜‚

        • Lily

          Yeah, but I know some people who have good experiences with Missha.
          Did you get the Burberry LIQUID lip velvet or their regular lipstick? The liquid lip velvets are all sold out here. I bought Bright Plum and have been hunting for Oxblood. I’ll just wait I guess πŸ™‚

          • I bought Bright Plum too! Haha! I was tempted to get Oxblood but I’m not sure if I can pull off the very dark shade.

            • Lily

              I’m sure you can! You don’t have thin lips, so you can rock it for sure πŸ™‚

  • Yvonne Tay

    Sorry to hear your grandma is unwell. It’s always during these times that we get that reality check and remind ourselves that we cannot turn back time, so it’s important to spend time with our loved ones, and let them know we love them. Hope you feel more cheery soon!

    I was reading up on Missha Time Revolution Night Repair Science Activator Ampoule being a better (and less expensive) option to the Estee Lauder.. although it contains more natural extracts. I’m not sure if I would try that, but it might be a good option for you!

    • Lily

      Hi Yvonne, yes, it’s definitely a harsh reminder that we need to spend time with our loved ones. And about Missha, the essence broke me out, so I don’t think I’m going to try the rest of the Time Revolution series any time soon!

      • Yvonne Tay

        Oh no! glad you told me about it breaking you out.. I was about to finally cave and try it out. Haha.. shall press on in my search for affordable serums.

        • Lily

          Oh gosh, I so desperately wanted it to work, but I started getting lots of tiny spots. Scary!

  • Oh dear, sorry to hear about your grandma. Hope everyone pulls through stronger and healthier, and please take care of yourself too!! Sending you my love! HUGS!!

    • Lily

      She’s much better now, thank you Linda. She seems to need constant company at the moment. Poor thing.