Happy New Year 2018 and Thank You!

Happy New Year 2018 everybody! I hope you had a good Christmas and perhaps even had a great holiday. The kids are going back to school tomorrow after a 5-week break from school. They were complaining that this holiday felt like it went by too fast, and I agree. Maybe we were having too good a time. 2017 flew by, and that’s what most of us said. Actually, I feel like that come every year end. The year just kind of flew by, then it’d be New Year’s Day, and then Chinese New Year.

It didn’t matter if I had a shitty week, or a shitty few months during that year. By the end of the year, I’d look back, reflect, and think, hey, I made through it and while it was bad, I’m still here. Stronger. So my friends, my dear friends who didn’t have that great of a year, or maybe you’re still having a difficult time, it will pass. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. There is always tomorrow and the sun always rises. Take your time to mourn. I know I did when my granddad passed away. Be calm and endure, even when you think it’s ridiculous and you should punch someone in the face. You’d be glad you didn’t. If it’s something beyond you, then may you find strength in something you absolutely believe in. It may be God, it may be yourself, it may be the love for your family or the love OF your loved ones.

I know it’s getting soppy, but 2017 has been tough for many people I know.

 

 

Moving forward, I honestly don’t have any plans nor big goals. I just want to continue with my fitness journey, which I’ve been working on the past couple of years. It’s really been a journey of self discovery. There have been good times and dark times, battling with my inner demons, but I think this journey itself is priceless as I slowly become a better person.

Beauty wise, I want to continue to use up my things as I have in 2017. I will continue to document my skincare empties here on the blog, and makeup empties on Instagram. I might even start doing one in one out posts for skincare once I’ve cleared out the remaining backups I have in my cupboard. There’s not much left, because I’ve used up backups of serums and moisturizers. It’s definitely an achievement, because I worked on it the past 2-3 years.

Blogging wise, I’d like to say I want to put up better content more regularly, but in all honesty, I can only do what I can manage. It’s not easy being a full time mom to 3 kids, with a 3-year-old still clinging on to me every minute of the day. Ashton goes to school in the morning, so I have some free time to myself. During that time, I get my guaranteed workout time in. More important than blogging, don’t you think? LOL! But I can promise you, I’ll still be as honest and candid as I have. I’ll still keep it real because it’s too much effort trying to be someone I’m not.

So I want to wish all of you a peaceful 2018. Please take care of your health. Get your sleep in, get your water in, try to get a couple of workouts in, get your vege, vitamins, and also, love. Keep the people who give you strength very close to you. And stay hopeful. Hope is what keeps us going. Our hope and faith for a better tomorrow.

Thank you for reading, as usual. Thank you for being with me, commenting even when you’re busy, and staying with me even though I sometimes disappear for a while. And for that thank you, I’d like to give you a surprise. An Instagram giveaway just ended, but I want to have one on the blog too. I bought a huge eye shadow palette from Violet Voss a while ago. It’s called the Violet Voss Holy Grail palette. I haven’t tried it before, but I LOVE THE COLOURS!!! It’s been sitting in my drawer, and I’ve been so tempted to try it! But no, I held it in and thought I’d save it for a giveaway. Along with this eye palette, I have a pair of Huda Beauty faux mink lashes for you, when you want extra drama. It’s Farah #12 lashes. I bought these from Cult Beauty, and you can always search for swatches online.

This giveaway is open worldwide, to my genuine readers. As you can see, I didn’t announce it in the title, and I also sneakily announce it at the end of a long ramble. If you’ve been reading so far, thank you! As you know, I don’t like to have giveaways to get more subscribers. It’s the genuine readers, my long time readers who really count.

All you have to do is, tell me in the comment below, your happiest moment in 2017. I know of too many sad stories in 2017, so I want ALL OF US to remember that one happiest moment in 2017 and focus on that to bring us into 2018. So tell me and I’ll pick the winner randomly on the 10th of January 2018. I’ll contact the winner via email and will also announce it here by editing this post <here>.

 

Congratulations Cecila!! Please email me your address so I can send the prize to you!!

 

Again, Happy 2018, and enter this giveaway! This eye palette is gorgeous, and so is the lashes! I don’t earn a salary anymore, so I can’t afford to buy too many expensive gifts for you, so I hope you’ll like these 🙂

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

Happy Birthday To Me and Surprise!

I turn 39 years old today.

It’s school holiday for the girls today, so it’s like the school is giving them a day off for my birthday. LOL! I know I’ll have fun celebrating with them. Ashton still doesn’t really know what a birthday really is, but he sure enjoys blowing out candles over and over again :-/ The husband has work, so maybe a family dinner with cake and candles. I’ve been really good with my low carb diet, and I’ve already planned for this day to be a cheat day.

Also, half a year ago, my blog turned 6 and I planned a gift for one of you lucky readers but erm, life took over. So I’m going to make up for it now! I’m avoiding the “g*#%away” word because it’ll get picked up and we’ll have vultures zooming in. I really just want my blog readers to enter, and when less of the vultures find out, more chances for my genuine readers to get it.

This is going to be like a LIP KIT. Hahaha! You can have whatever skin type and skin color, and I think you’ll appreciate these lip colors.

  1. Peripera (Korean brand) Airy Ink Velvet in 05 Elf Light Rose
  2. Chateau Labiotte (Korean brand) Wine Lip Tint in CR01
  3. Dior Transparent Lip Liner
  4. Burberry Liquid Lip Velvet in No 57 Black Cherry
  5. Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick in Lolita II
  6. And some random samples that you can help me use up (haha!)

All the shades are super wearable, but I wanted to include Black Cherry because it’s friggin sexy and I love the formula. I purchased all these with my own money (even samples, I get from purchasing stuff) and they are not press samples.

To enter, just comment below saying “I WANT THESE LIPSTICKS!” and I’ll enter you. If you didn’t write these few words, I’ll assume you’re just commenting WITHOUT entering. This is open right now, until… how long does it normally take you to read a new post? A week and you won’t read the old posts anymore right? So, let’s just have this run for one week and I’ll draw one name 7 days from now (11 August) on my Instagram account – on Instastory so you can see the draw for yourself.

I’ll also email you and you’ll have to reply within 2 days. If not, I’ll draw again. You can join wherever you are, as long as I can send lipsticks to you.

Have fun and thank you for reading my ramblings!

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

Last Update for 2016

I’ve changed the title many times, saved drafts I deleted and also stared at the screen for hours. I just don’t know what to write. I do know however, that I need to say something about 2016. What a year it has been! It’s close to 5pm now, kids are watching Totoro on TV, and I’m contemplating pouring myself a glass or two of the Brown Brothers Moscato chilling in the fridge just to see if it’ll help my thoughts flow more freely. I don’t even drink (maybe 1 glass a year!).

And 2 days later… (LOL!)

I have procrastinated long enough. I read many posts on 2016 recaps and I love reading all of them. So I’m just going to write without editing. Whatever that goes through my mind RIGHT NOW.

Sure enough, there are some really obvious bizarre things that happened, beautiful people passing away and the rise of some sort of evil. Then again, I’ve also seen so many good, and these good things will hopefully outshine the bad. In the end, I always believe it starts from “ME”. Yes, you, me, but it’s me. Let’s point the finger at ourselves and take the ownership and responsibility to be kind and good, and also happy. I’ve tried, and it’s not easy. Still trying!

Blogwise, the year started off pretty regular, doing more reviews as usual. Then my grandfather got sick, and passed away, and I took quite a bit of time off. Still am, actually. I haven’t really been able to get back into full swing, because truthfully, it’s probably the holidays. Hahaha! I will be busy with the girls going back to school and having a whole new schedule come Tuesday, so that will take a bit of time for me to get used to. That said, I have some things I want to share with you, things I’ve been using regularly, so I’ll try to get to those things first. And hopefully be back full swing, posting about 3 times weekly. Here are a few things I emptied by year end.

 

 

 

 

Workout wise, my strength improved massively, but my endurance/stamina is pretty shitty, if I’d say so myself. So, nowadays, my workout is more about metabolic conditioning, that is less heavy, but more volume, more reps. I’m not aiming to be a power lifter, but my main goal is to change the way my body looks. So, I keep telling myself, I shouldn’t care if I could pull that 100kg deadlift! Nutrition is still my biggest weakness. Food is. I get my workouts in, but as the saying goes, “You can’t out train a bad diet”. Hahaha! I don’t eat badly per se, but I’m not especially good at it either. I have my days. Or weeks. Teehee!

Then, lastly and most importantly, me being a mom. It is friggin tough being a stay at home mom to 3 kids. At times, I’d rather go back to the time when I was working full time. Now that I’ve done both, I can cross my heart, honestly say that being a stay at home mom is tougher. Why?

  1. Minimal connection with adults so I feel left out, out of touch, whatever it is, just not normal
  2. FULL and constant contact with whiny kids. Test my patience every second
  3. Minimal to no time to self. Kids are always going “MOMMY!!!”. Even taking a poop takes ninja skills.

I think these 3 are enough to drive me nuts. Then again, with thoughts like these, in the end, I’d still choose to be with my kids. Here in my country, it is the norm to leave for work before 8am and come home after 8pm. I won’t have much time to spend with the little ones at all. After all, at the end of the day, when they rub me like big kitties, give me big hugs and wet kisses, all my stress would disappear. So for now, I’d rather stay at home and spend as much time as I can with them. So here’s to more hair pulling, self choking beautiful days. Hahahaha!

That’s about it, my friends. I’m ending 2016 with normal every day thoughts, little things that make me, well, me. I don’t live an exciting eventful life, but I like it without drama, thank you. Mundane has its perks and beautiful things happen in the least expected boring routine. If we look for it, even just that ray of light passing through the leaves brings a sense of wonder. Even just a kind smile from a stranger.

 

 

** Thank you Dior for the beautiful globe**

 

Cheers to all of you beautiful people, and thank you for being here with me. Thank you for reading my incoherent thoughts, my rambling, my rants and for staying even when I’m not around enough. Here’s to a wonderful 2017. See you next year!

 

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

 

 

Unexpected Break Update

It’s been 3 weeks since my last post. I’m still getting emails from you guys and you have no idea how touched I am. My grandfather passed away a few days after that last post. There was one day when he was very alert, so close to being normal, but 2 days later, he left us. We were mentally prepared for this day to come, but nothing prepared us emotionally. I currently have the ‘sudden tears outbreak’ syndrome (LOL!) and I know it’s only normal. As I’m writing this, I feel the need to hold back tears, because I have my makeup on and I want to go out without touching up. Hahaha! Then again, my friends, I learned to let go. People, family and friends, are in our lives for a purpose and it’s not to be with us forever in our lifetime. People come and after they served their purpose, people go. Yes, even the bitches and dickheads you meet are for a purpose. It’s to test your resilience and also to make you learn a lesson in life. I think, if you haven’t learned it, the assholes will be back. Hah! Picture below seems to reflect what I feel at the moment. Not as dark anymore 🙂

 

 

hope

 

 

Sob story aside, and the ridiculousness that’s happening in the world far and wide, I made a few awesome discoveries. A very affordable Simple micellar water (200ml, RM22.90) is a current favourite. I’m also falling back in love with Bobbi Brown. LOVE the Illuminating Face Base (forgot how much I paid for this) and stick foundation (RM160) which I purchased. They’re permanents which you don’t see get hyped up (because it’s now all about limited edition and new shiny stuff, isn’t it?) but guys, these 2 are FRIGGIN AMAZING. Once I get back into blogging mode, I’ll write a full review.

My hands have been getting dry, and I was looking for one that’s rich enough to take the dryness away, but not so rich I’m leaving greasy hand prints everywhere. I’m now using Caudalie hand and nail cream (75ml, RM65), and Cetaphil moisturizing cream (85ml, RM75). They are both more affordable than the Clarins hand cream (100ml, RM110) I used to love and they are just as good. The unexpected one is from Cetaphil. A scentless thick cream that keeps my hands moisturized and grease free. I just have to remember not to wash my hands too soon after I apply the cream. The Caudalie one smells amazing by the way, and it’s lighter but still does the job.

I’ve also been getting some new clothes online, and I think I have to share my experience with you one day. It’s been a new discovery (both good and bad) that’s for sure. I will be taking the kids to Disneyland end of this month, and will be back early December. I think I’ll take the rest of this month off, and I’ll see you when it’s all festive and Christmas-y 🙂

Until then, stay well, my friends. And thank you again for keeping me in your thoughts.

 

 

xoxo Lily

 

 

Random Thoughts and Surprise!

 

 

I have been binge watching mukbangs. What are they? Go to YouTube and search. They’re eating channels, with a twist. I watch mainly for the different types of food. I’ve been watching those from Korea because I like to see what types of foods there are (I love Korean food). I sometimes read the comments, and boy, are there ignorant ones. There are also many rude comments, and very intolerant behaviour. Is it just YouTube culture in general? Or when you get some hate online, then it means you’ve made it?

 

I actually do wonder why those people feel the need to make negative comments on something so basic like eating. They’d complain about the way those people eat, the way they slurp their noodles and just making eating sounds in general. I might think it’s the mic that picks up on every single sound, but some people actually watch FOR those sounds. In some cultures, you slurp your noodles to compliment the chef. It’s not all of Asia, and I think it’s more of a Japanese / Korean culture. Some Chinese do it too. But it’s really a personal thing, because not everyone slurps and smack their lips, etc. Some find it rude, some find it OK.

 

What do you think of these rude comments? Or negative comments in general? I don’t mind it if those comments actually give constructive criticism in a polite way, but some are like “why do you smack your lips when you eat? That’s so disgusting!” My reaction is usually, don’t effing watch it then! Why do you need to leave a comment like that? Everything’s the same online isn’t it? If you don’t like it, don’t read it. Don’t watch it. It’s just the internet. Just go offline! I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’m the sort of person who avoid confrontations. I don’t like to be offensive which I think is rude and those dudes use freedom of speech as an excuse for trolling.

 

How do you feel about this? LOL I’m on a mukbang kick because I’m weird like that. Honestly, I quite like those eating sounds, slurping and smacking, because they just make those food look so friggin delicious. HOWEVER (and this is a big disclosure), I teach my kids to eat quietly. I am a quiet eater myself. My father in law is a loud eater. And my husband eats quite fast. They’re enjoying their food though, isn’t it what matters?

 

Would you tell your husband to change? In a quiet restaurant, I do remind him to eat slower and without any sound but when we’re in a Chinese restaurant where most people eat loudly anyway, and at home, he can do whatever he wants.

 

Thanks for reading my rambles! And guess what? I know many of you guys couldn’t enter the last sneaky giveaway which ended 2 weeks ago, so I wanted to host another giveaway. Because I like to surprise you like that! It will be open for 10 days, and open worldwide. All you have to do is just to enter your email address. Don’t have to post shout outs, and you don’t even have to subscribe if you don’t want to. This is not a subscription drive, which honestly, will attract all sorts of giveaway hunters. I want YOU to win something, my genuine readers. So, like the last time, don’t tweet about it, just keep it to yourself. Hahahaha! You can enter your email once every day, that’ll increase your chances of winning. Winner will be picked randomly by Rafflecopter so good luck!
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20 Things That Make Me Happy

It’s been a little difficult to get on a regular blogging schedule. I’ve been so busy! I can set aside one night to write a few posts to be scheduled throughout the next 2 weeks, but after that night, I’d be offline for 3 weeks. Hahaha! I still do blogging things offline like taking photos and testing stuff, writing down notes, but I just couldn’t find the time to sit down to edit photos and write a proper post. You guys will think I’ve only been away for a week or so, since you’ve been getting the pre-written posts fed to your inbox but for me, I feel like it’s been ages since I wrote! So I think I’ll do something light and fluffy. This is inspired by Tracy’s blogpost here. She did 50 things, but I think I’ll scale it down to 20. Here they are, in no particular order.

 

 

random

 

 

1. My Children’s Laughter

Nothing else make my heart swell so much. No matter how shitty I’d feel, their hearty laughter makes me burst with happiness! I especially love a baby’s laugh. This Instagram video was taken more than 3 months ago, but Ashton still laughs like that. LOVE!

 

2. A Warm Hug

An enveloping hug that’s strong and protective. A bear hug from the husband makes all my worries and stress go away.

 

3. My Mom’s Cooking

Nothing compares to mom’s home cooked meal. It can be a very simple one, but it warms my tummy and makes me go Aaaahhhh…

 

4. Good Friends

I’m not one to have many circles of friends, but the little one that I have is a circle of very dear friends I can depend on.

 

forever friends

 

5. Hot Noodles with Soup

I have a crazy affection for soup noodles. Preferably spicy ones. I really like our local curry vermicelli and Korean ramyeon. I like Hokkaido ramen, Kyushu ramen… yumm!!

 

6. Sushi

All sorts. Enough said. With lots of pickled ginger.

 

7. Beautiful Makeup

There’s a reason I’m still blogging. All the pretties still get me, even though there are times I don’t give a hoot.

 

8. Hitting Pan

Yes, while I appreciate beautiful untouched makeup, I feel it’s a waste not using them. Looking at well used makeup makes me happy!

 

to empty

 

9. Chloe’s Quiet Thoughtfulness

Chloe, my 9-year-old now, remains my first love (husband aside). She’s my first baby, and she’s grown so much. She’s still little, at only 9 years old, but she’s mature beyond her age. She has much consideration for others and she makes me proud.

 

10. Ashlyn’s Ridiculous Stories

She can’t be more different than Chloe. She’s loud, outgoing, hyperactive and so imaginative. She sometimes doesn’t make sense, but her stories are so silly and funny at the same time. She’s fearless and has no qualms of asking an adult if she brushed her teeth because her teeth looked yellow and she had smelly breath. HAHAHAHA!

 

11. Ashton’s Cuteness

I’m totally biased. Everything about him is cute. The way he trots around with his diapers to the way he scrunches his face when it’s smelly. He’s so animated and he copies everything everyone else does. His smile and dimples be the death of everyone including strangers! We often get interrupted at shops and cafes because strangers just want to play with him. Scare the shit out of me though… so many kidnapping cases in broad daylight lately, I’d rather be left alone thank you.

 

12. Movies

I’m a movie buff. I enjoy all sorts of movies but don’t watch horror anymore. Children and even the husband get scared. Am I the only one who wonder how they do the scary makeup?

 

13. K dramas

Guilty pleasure. I am not ashamed of ogling at pretty boys 10 years younger. Sssshhh just don’t tell everyone!

 

14. Baking

Baking calms me down. And people enjoying my baked goodies make me happy. Below are my salted Oreo cupcakes. The cupcakes themselves are sweet but the buttercream loaded with Oreo crumbs are salted.

 

Oreo cupcakes

 

15. Quite time

It’s hard to get some quiet time now, so whenever I’m given the opportunity, I appreciate it. I need my time to myself to recuperate, to find my center again. I could be doing nothing, or just having a long bath, or taking time to read (a luxury now) but as long as it’s quiet and I can gather my thoughts, I can find myself again.

 

16. Weekends / Family Time

This is the time everyone in the family is around together. We’d go out for lunch, or we’d go to the mall, or maybe we’d go swimming together, all 5 of us. Love family time.

 

17. Good Skincare

Good skincare is everything. As I get older, I appreciate creamier textures more. My skin is changing, and KNOWING that is winning half the battle. Now for the other half, finding a new routine that works. I am fortunate that I get to experiment with more products, so I know what works and what doesn’t, but it’s also unfortunate if my skin reacts negatively to certain products. Part and parcel of blogging, which is why I only accept skincare from trusted brands now. By that, I mean brands that my skin likes.

 

18. Cartoons

I watch a lot of cartoons. I’d go to the movies when there’s a new cartoon out. At the moment, the fever is Pocoyo. The kids love it, and I enjoy it too. It’s cuteness overload, and funny too.

 

pocoyo

 

19. Chocolate

I don’t eat sweets much. I don’t like hard candy. I hardly eat ice cream. I only have a bite or a serving of the things I bake myself. But chocolates, I LOVE!

 

20. Accepting Myself

I’m always hard on myself. I used to think people always talked bad about me behind my back. I am insecure, and I’m still working on my insecurities. My husband says I’m just a drama queen. Maybe so. As I got older, I developed a ‘don’t give a shit’ attitude. As I grew to accept myself, it just doesn’t bother me if there are people who don’t accept me, because there will be those who do. We all have something precious that others crave. Some people might look like they have it all, but every single person has their own worries and insecurities. So for me, I don’t need to do anything but to be the best version of MYSELF. Me. That makes me feel much better about myself, and just so much happier. So if you’re like me, let me sincerely tell you – you are just fine the way you are!

 

I hope you enjoyed this. What are some of the things that make you happy? *cue Pharrell’s Happy* It’s been playing in my head as I wrote this 🙂

 

 

xoxo Lily